What was it that made you change your mind about Mormonism?

The first step, I guess, was being in despair. I wasn't looking for a crutch but I did realize that my proud and hardened attempts to attain happiness for myself were utterly futile. I looked at all organized religion with skepticism but somehow I knew that if there was a church that was right, the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints was it. While healing from despair, I began to look at the church with new eyes-- eyes fresh with hope and humility. It opened my heart to feelings of wonder and awe, that perhaps there really was something to all this. I read the Book of Mormon finally (it's amazing how many people reject this church without sincerely reading that precious book) and there it was: undeniable proof of the Restoration. It implied everything. If this really was a record of ancient prophets in North and South America, then... whoa.

Do you miss fornicating?

No. (smile) I think of sex now as a secret... the best secret. The deepest and most wonderful secret, and I don't want to tell the secret to anyone who won't keep it safe. I only want to share what is truly mine with the man who knows everything about me, who knows my fears and weaknesses and passions and desires, who will stand by me through heaven and hell, who will be my best friend and companion. To me, sex is the physical manifestation of an emotional and spiritual covenant. I think I will be happiest if I treat it that way.

When was the last time you felt joy [it better have been recently!]?

At church this morning four friends of mine sang the hymn, "If You Could Hie to Kolob." My favorite lyrics, sung so beautifully:

"There is no end to glory, there is no end to love. There is no end to being, there is no death above."

I felt joy then.

What do you think the key to a happy life is?

Aknowledging my faults and mistakes, without shame or guilt, which can be a painful process. Ask for forgiveness, accept forgiveness, forgive myself. Commit to being more kind, more honest, more selfless. Forgive others constantly for their mistakes (not to say their mistakes are constant... just that I ought to forgive the moment I feel an offense).

Basically, repentance and forgiveness. (Hugh Nibley said that.)

Do you know where you're going yet?

No. But I'll be shouting it from the rooftops when I do.

Any more questions?